For a long time now, I've felt a little bit like a fraud. The truth is, I never grew up with a camera attached to my face. I'd never even used a DSLR until my first son was almost one.
I think I've been in a darkroom once as part of a Science Camp (yep.... I sure did attend science camp). I wasn't ever consumed by photography in any way at all. And sometimes, that's hard as a professional photographer. Photography should have always been my one true passion.
It just wasn't my THING. And.... here's my revelation for the day..... it still isn't (at least in a literal sense).
My photography journey is like so many others. I wanted to take nice pictures of my kids and I was frustrated at the limitations of shooting on AUTO mode. So, I taught myself how to shoot in Manual mode.
And in the process, my world changed a little bit.
During those months of learning and studying and practicing, I did have my trusty Nikon glued to my face. Not only did I start to take some nice pictures, but also, I actually started to see things differently through my lens.
When I pressed the shutter, I was able to freeze moments - moments in my children's lives that I wanted to remember: beautiful, real, emotional moments. Instead of losing my mind when Max the Terror dumped a bottle of syrup all over the kitchen, I saw the moment through my lens and all of a sudden, it was funny.... a moment I may even miss one day when he is old and grown and gone.
But still, photography is not my THING. I am not driven by a need to click buttons and edit endlessly. My love for photography is something else all together, It is a love of and for people. Being a photographer, to me, is a means to an end.
It is a way to see you, and to show you how real and valuable and beautiful you are. When I look an image of a family cuddling in the grass, what I see is that you belong and are loved beyond measure. When I freeze that moment in time for you, well, what a gift that is!
When I look through my viewfinder and see a sweet newborn baby, chubby cheeks aglow in a wash of back light, what I see is newness and rawness and trust. When I freeze that moment in time for you, I know that I am giving you an eternal extension on the most fleeting time in your life.
When I look through my viewfinder to see a sweet boy with a huge grin on his face in the middle of complete sticky chaos, what I see is perspective, and love beyond measure. When I freeze that moment in time, I know that I am giving myself the gift of a life lived without regret.
So, it's not about the camera, it's not about passion for photography in and of itself. It's about people and the reality of a life well lived. I'd love to show you how beautiful you are, how beloved you are, and how much you belong.
Because you are, you are, and you do.
Are you ready to let me show you what I see when I look at you?
Fawn Lily Photography is a Victoria BC based Newborn, Family, and Wedding Photographer. With a studio located in Sidney BC, Sarah works in Greater Victoria photographing newborns, babies, children, couples, and families.